Three months ago I was calling out to God asking Him what was next. My cousins were going to be going to Africa with YWAM after we graduate, all my friends are going to college, but I didn’t have a clue. He just kept bringing the word steadfast to my attention. For a while, I ignored it, but then. I finally listened, I looked it up.

steadfast adjective stead·fast \ˈsted-ˌfast

resolutely or dutifully firm and unwavering. Synonyms: loyal, faithful, committed, devoted, dedicated, dependable, reliable, steady, true

God put the Holy Spirit into our lives to be a firm foundation, to be a constant, to be never changing, so why am I worried about anything. I HAVE THE HOLY SPIRIT IN MY HEART, WHAT AM I EVEN WORRIED ABOUT. What people will say about me, that’s what. I always heard “everyone is going to expect that you’re going to college, that doesn’t mean that’s what you have to do, though,” and I never thought that was real. But holy cow it is. Someone sees you for the first time in forever and their first question is always “so where are you going to college?” I hate it.

Moving on. I got so fed up with God, honestly. I felt like I was supposed to go somewhere with YWAM, but I didn’t know where. I pursued different ones in Africa, like for months, that’s all I pursued. Then God just kind of shut that door and just said “LISTEN TO ME.” So I did. I spent a few days where I just didn’t let myself look up anything related to my future. I just got in the Word and said “God, show me. Your will.” I found myself a couple of days later scrolling through every YWAM starting in June or July in all of the world, basically just window shopping. After scrolling through for a while, like days, man, there are tons, on the third to last page of results, I found it. I knew it. God said “this is it, my child. listen to me. read it. pursue it. receive it.”

I pulled up this website for a YWAM in Germany, it was called the Mountain DTS (Discipleship Training School). When I read the title I thought to myself, mountains with asthma, really God!? But I trusted. I read through the whole website. Over and over and over again. I had a peace, I’ve never felt such a peace, about anything. I showed it to my parents, they didn’t get back to me about any thoughts for like a week. We were all just praying through it.

One evening after we put all the littles to bed, they sat down with me and said “we think you should take this course in Astronomy and also one in Geology for your last high-school science credit.” I was puzzled. “Well, we think both will be helpful for you to have a good knowledge of when you apply to the YWAM in Freiburg, Germany.” I got big eyed and I got a tiny bit weepy, but had so much excitement and thankfulness. That night, I emailed the base and asked for an application, I received it a couple days later and had it completed in less than a week. When you know God’s calling you to do something, don’t delay.

Within a few weeks, I got a response, had a few more forms to fill out, and I was sent to my allergist to check on my lungs. I’ve never had great asthma, it’s been pretty bad at times, but the last few times I’ve gone in for checkups, my lungs have improved, a lot. This past time, as the nurse entered all my information into the computer, I just kept remembering the verse in Esther 4 where her uncle Mordecai says “and who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” God has been preparing every part of me for this adventure- every part of me, even my lungs.

Anyway, after all these forms, appointments, in the last of my skype interviews, the DTS leader said “well, I’m really glad you’re coming. I cannot wait to meet you and see how God works in and through you.” I hung up with him and danced around my room to Bethel and cried because of all the feelings and also because God is so good and so faithful.

I could tell you every single God story of how He brought me here, to be a completely scatterbrained individual with a tried and true acceptance letter sitting in front of me, but I won’t. He has been so faithful through all of this, through every doctors appointment, every deep spiritual question on the application, the time that I realized this trip was $3000 less than I expected, and even every conversation of people wanting to support my trip, I’m so thankful.

Freiburg, Germany, I’m coming for you. I cannot wait.


If you want to know more information, there’s an area below that you can leave a comment in and I’ll get back to you as soon as I can. If you want to partner with me for my trip, there are multiple ways you can do that.  First, by prayer, this is a huge step of faith so I’d so appreciate that. Second, by provision of funds, I’ll be selling tshirts soon, as well as selling some crafty things over on my instagram, @handmadebynatnkat . Thirdly, by preparation, I will need to get hiking gear before I go, so I’ll need provision for that as well.

thank you thank you thank you.


much love,


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