“WHEREVER you would call me”

You always think of your life, or at least I did, as high school, college, marriage, kids, right? Wellllllll, sometimes God changes that.

I’ve always felt this calling to Ecuador, but I thought the only way to do that was to go on week long missions trips with my church. I’ve gone once for a week, fell in love. I go for another week next month, this time with a different mentality. The past week or so I’ve just felt this big desire, weighing on my heart. I can’t get it to go away. It’s just there, it’s in my brain, it keeps me up at night.

In some way, shape, or  form, I’m supposed to go to Ecuador for longer than a week. A lot longer. It makes me so excited that God would put something like this on my heart, but also, it’s terrifying, absolutely terrifying. I would be moving to another country by myself. 

I’ve told God that, He laughs at me a little, I think. He says, “you think I haven’t thought of that? Have you thought of how Jonah felt? He was so terrified that he ran from me. Yeah, that didn’t work out for Him.”

I went to Passion City Church on Sunday night, even though I didn’t really want to go at first. One of the songs we sang was Oceans, I’ve always just viewed that as this overplayed song on the radio, but as tears ran down my face, I finally got it. 

“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior”

I’ve held on to the story of Jonah in these past days/ weeks, Jonah had a calling on his life, He literally ran from it, and He ended up going anyway. Running from God accomplished nothing. I can be scared to death about moving to another country, but that won’t change God’s plan. He’ll take care of me, He’ll comfort me, He’ll give me food to eat and water to drink.

The thing about Jonah is this, he knew that Ninevah was big, he knew that there were people that needed to be saved, but He was too scared. When God finally showed Him who was boss and told Jonah he was going, whether he liked it or not, Jonah went. Jonah was filled with the Spirit and the people repented, they turned to Jesus.

When Jesus went into heaven he said one simple thing, “but you will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth.”

Maybe you’ve been called to spread the Word of God in your work, in your home – because not everyone in your family knows Jesus, or maybe you’re supposed to go out into the world and spread the Gospel. I don’t know, but I’ll promise you this, if God calls you to something and you do it, it’ll be amazing and it will be for His glory.

How about this, I’ll pray for you, that you’ll see where He’s calling you to. And you pray for me, that I’ll know what I need to do to be obedient wherever He may call me. That I can finish my senior year and be able to go out and spread the name of Jesus, even across borders. All for HIM.

All my love,


2 thoughts on ““WHEREVER you would call me””

  1. Beautifully written! My plan was to move back to Zimbabwe, but God changed that to college, marriage, babies. His will WILL be done, whether you run or not! Submit to his sovereignty & let His grace move you! You got this! We love you & are praying for you daily!

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